i feel yickie, u no, yuckie and ickie, and i only feel that way bcause i don't no how i feel, which is the scary part i guess, somethin majpr happened, but i cant talk 2 anybody bout it yet, except the ppl who r goin threw it w/me, i have this tendency 2 shut othr ppl out when im depressed, i dun mean 2 do it, i jus do, i didnt feel like writin on paper so, im typin, its jus i feel angery and pissed and sad, and a bunch of othr yickie feelings and now i realize its over more than 1 thing and the othr thinsg have to deal w/ the thing and ya... okay then, i havent been doin much of anythin l8ly, except the damn school report, and workin on 1 drawin, but it aint very good, its 4 art class, the only class that seems like a fun challenge, i h8 lit, even tho i love readin, normally, not l8ly tho, ive been to, too, "blah" to read anythin good, and i want to read this one book, by 1 of my favorite authors, but im afraid to read it because i dunno if ill like it, which is bad, i have never been afraid of an inanimate object b4, a book at least, dc, is in 3 weeks, YAY, i only have 29 more days of school left, YAY, i felt happy 4 a minute ther, but now i feel bad 4 feelin good, oi, i cant write anymore, my minds wanderin 2 much now i guess, ooo, if anyone has tips 4 drawin hair that looks realistic, i wood greatly appriciate it thanks